Maybe....

Well, it has been almost 4 months. since my last post.  I know this b/c my little man is now almost this old!  I can't believe it.  The time has gone quick, yet also slow.  Each day has been a new learning experience.  Parenting is something I was NOT prepared for.  I never could have been.  Looking back now labor and delivery were a breeze compared to all of this.  Every day has been a challenge for someone like me who tends to be a very routine/organized lady who likes things just so.  
Today however is actually the first day in a long time I have felt like me.  Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's a talk with an old friend on FB that gave me some peace, maybe it's an amazing husband who works way too hard for me to get to experience this blessing of staying home, maybe it's the little baby sleeping in his crib...taking his 5th nap of the day, maybe it's the encouraging words I read and journaled this morning during my quiet time, maybe it's the excitement churning inside when I think of my mom coming to visit in a couple of weeks, or maybe it is just the fact that I am blessed beyond words and lucky to be living this life with all of its craziness and insanity.