My cousin, Amanda, started a blog channelingjunecleaver.blogspot.com last week and has got me motivated again to type on my own. I love that she explains in her first post that she was questioned by her husband as to what she was going to type about being a stay at home momma and all. This is a question I would have had as well about 8 months ago. I couldn't seem to understand the life of a stay at home mom. I mean how hard could it be? You get to stay in your p.j.'s as long as you want, you can watch t.v. all day if you want, you can drink coffee all day, go on walks with your baby, clean your house, make dinner for your hubby, explore the Internet while your baby naps....I mean seriously stay at home mom's have the life. Well, this is what I thought until I actually started to experience it. See, for someone like me who seriously thought the grass was greener on the other side, has had a hard time adjusting to this life. Don't get me wrong it is amazing and I truly wouldn't trade it for anything, but all the thoughts I had about staying at home, while true, are things I find myself not doing. I have this set of rules for myself which only I have written for ME to follow. Why on earth do I feel that I must abide by these rules? Why can't I allow myself to turn the t.v. on before 3:00? Why don't I stay in my p.j.'s all day? I swear I sometimes frustrate myself. The truth is, when you have been so organized and strict with yourself in the past it is hard to let go of those expectations. I used to pride myself on the identity I had as a teacher. Staying at home and being a mommy has given me a new identity though. One that has been hard to adjust to, but every day I am learning.
This is such a gift! I am living a dream that many women wish they could have. I realize how lucky I am and am also being reminded daily that I need to embrace this opportunity. This stay at home thing isn't for everyone and I can understand why sometimes. I am encouraged though by people like my cousin who help me see that I can find an identity while doing this just as I did with my previous job.
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BTW, I don't know why that said Andrew...this is Angie from ISU : )
Give yourself a break...a perk of being a SAHM is staying in your pajamas all day...at least one day a week....at least that's what I give myself...also known as cleaning day. : ) It is an adjustment, but the most important job in the world! Such a short time and they are in school and it is over. Enjoy!
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